Last Walls is a partnership between Thiscene Media and If Walls Could Talk. Every week, organizer Melizarani T. Selva gives us one of her favorite poems from the last If Walls Could Talk and we put it up on the site.

This poem was performed at IF WALLS COULD TALK vol. 29 feat Muhammad Haji Salleh & Heerraa, on Thursday, February 9, 2017. 

 

Mind your own business

by Umar Azizi

 

I am not good with words.
I think
words are hard,
rough and irreversible,
tough and incomprehensible.

Besides,
what are words
when it’s the thought that counts.
But
when I try to speak my mind
at the end of the day
you make my mind up for me
in your mind,
mind you,
and I am powerless to change that.
I don’t mind
but when you end up
getting hurt
because you thought
I thought
that
my thoughts
are not
one with your thoughts,
how do I fix it?
The emotional drive not there
when the mistake made was never meant
and I missed the fight we apparently had
and now you lie there shaking
in the deepest corners
of your mind
and you pay no mind to me.
I am alone
outside
looking into the room
where once I could see your
point of view
through your eyes,
so
I hold my tongue,
bare my teeth
and smile

and say,
“Thank you for shopping at Uniqlo!
Come again and have a nice day.”

 

Umar Azizi likes pauses, ikan pauses, pausesaj, menopause because it marks a change. When nothing makes much cents.

If Walls Could Talk is a live poetry night at Gaslight Cafe, Plaza Damansara, every second Thursday of the month. 

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